can't wait!

i can't wait!february the 15th!cpt la dtg,i wanna eat good food,hug my daddy and family, and see my baby boo!i miss him,haven't seen him in ages.can't wait!can't wait!toing!toing!(if u were wondering that is the sound of me jumping!)LOL!

my life today

there is so many things that is happening in my life, maybe it is just omen from god, for example i tore my stockings couple of days ago on my way to the job interview that i didn't get. (note to self, always brings extra pair of stockings), and when i got there it was pretty too early which left me pretty much nothing to do except sipping on coffee at the nearest Starbucks, i swear to god Starbucks is just like everywhere here,just like McD, they're probably more into real estate,i think. Well, i will also need to think of a business plan, gosh, why do i have to do all of this? well,maybe because i plan to have my own empire by the time i am 35years old. Hopefully apocalypse is just not here yet at that time, so i could actually see my cute kids grow up, yes,my baby-daddy better gimme cute kids..ahaha! and i actually thought of the budget for my wedding which is about 100k ringgit malaysia (bapak die,mane nak carik?- andartu la jwbnye).damn, i am so bored,well..i am off to watch Scrubs now..they makes the doctor looks so cool, so does ER, Grey's Anatomy etc, but hey, where's the engineer drama series or comedy?where?are they saying engineers leads a really boring life? NOOOOOOO....

James Wendt - So much more to say (Honey and Clover Movie)

i saw this song in honey and clover movie (okay,kantoi tgk anime disitu)
but it is such a good song to pass on. here's the lyric yo!yes,it made me cried, thousand times!

here's the link: it's a damn good song,if u're in a sad mood :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qXgaGdxy1hk

I walked the way and heard the sound
The sound of my own heart beat
My heart is bleeding all alone

I found out
I'm not the one you're looking for
I'm not the one you wait for
It's easier to look away

You, you don't see me
But I know
You, you're all I need

I hand out my empty hand
And I touch the gentle wind
I know I'll forget this all
Someday

This feeling would be gone

"Goodbye" that was all I could say
There's so much more to say
I wish you'd call my name
Take my hand

But I can't
My heart would break again
Every time I say "I Iove you"

hello back!

i know it has been so long..a little too long..;)sorry bout that...well, considering of the time to update my blog is ZERO (pffttt!), i need to get back on track right?i am so looking forward of my homecoming, considering how much i miss my daddy..;)and my besties, and my boyfie..;)

but before i left there is still unsettled business,

a)get a new rice cooker
b)dye my hair to a darker color
c)get a new part time job
d)shop at victoria's secret..(shhh..it's a secret)
e)get my 4 pax abs back..an abs to die for..;)) i am not being kinky here,but i am being very vain, narcissist..haha!sorry mom, i know u dun want me to be one. blame the media, and the whole homo-sapiens population if you must..;)
f)i need to get my life back on track and have full control over it again.;)

and the other day, my parents were being very PDA on their fb's status..here's warning for you guys, DO NOT ADD YOUR PARENTS ON FB UNLESS THEY ARE 60 AND ABOVE AND YOU PRETTY MUCH SURE THAT THEY ARE NOT DOING IT ANYMORE. Gosh, i so do not wanna know which position they made me. now that is gross idea, and i wonder how am i gonna sleep tonight. thinking but it just made my body flinch and shiver with ewwww....CRAP!

burrrrbbbberry!:D

hello heaps!

been very busy with my life lately..

anyways, here's an update for u guys on what i've been doing,

a) got a gym membership at konami sports club..kinda cool..it has pool,studio and spa and everything.

b)had just went on a shopping spree..bought myself, a trench coat,skirt and muffler : courtesy of burberry..:DD love ittttt!!!

but that's all for now..and this is what i wore yesterday..:D wore my booties:DD

slap!

this is what i wore today!

and i accidentally slap a guys face in the subway.

god knows how embarrassed i am..utter humilation..

i was trying to put my bag on the kind of a compartment for ur stuff above the person that was sitting down's head.but the so-called compartment is not really closed..aahh crap, i do not know how to explain this..

but that's not the point!anyways, i was trying to put my bag on top of the compartment, and then suddenly the train was going through a curve that caused the train to shake, so yeah..my right hand went on to the guy-that-was-standing-next-to-me's face..HARD..he was surprised by the way,told him i was sorry, and avoided eye contact with him for the next 30mins..that is so humiliating!just one wish to GOD, do not make me bump into him ever again in my whole life.

misery

hush my baby,

can you hear it?

god says you're perfect as the way you are,

and honestly luv,

i agree with Him,

if only you could see yourself through my eyes,

how much i want to hold you,feel you,

but i've taken you for granted,

the last time our eyes met,

you were turning your back on me,

your eyes full of disappointment,hatred towards me,

on your way out, you said,

honey,you're the last person i thought would hurt me,

but now you're gone,

not temporarily,momentarily,

but forever,

baby, i can't fall asleep alone,

i can't walk without you holding my hand,

i can't smile without seeing your smile,

i can't breathe without hearing your heartbeat,

i can't live without loving you,

cried myself to sleep every night,

i'm sorry for all the argument,

if i beg would you hold me?

if i cry would you come back to me?

i'm happy the way i love you,

i'm sorry and please come back,

part of me is gone with you,

i tried to reach you in my dreams every night,

i tried to be with you in my dreams,

just another reason why i wouldn't let my self be awake,

awaking alone without your smile in the morning,

is like, trying to breathe without air,

gasping, suffocating, asphyxiating,

the pain is unbearable,

too heavy to be carried anywhere,

too deep to be swam in,

god, just take me in now,

i'll wait by your grave every night,

just incase you rose, and would hold me for the last time,