misery

hush my baby,

can you hear it?

god says you're perfect as the way you are,

and honestly luv,

i agree with Him,

if only you could see yourself through my eyes,

how much i want to hold you,feel you,

but i've taken you for granted,

the last time our eyes met,

you were turning your back on me,

your eyes full of disappointment,hatred towards me,

on your way out, you said,

honey,you're the last person i thought would hurt me,

but now you're gone,

not temporarily,momentarily,

but forever,

baby, i can't fall asleep alone,

i can't walk without you holding my hand,

i can't smile without seeing your smile,

i can't breathe without hearing your heartbeat,

i can't live without loving you,

cried myself to sleep every night,

i'm sorry for all the argument,

if i beg would you hold me?

if i cry would you come back to me?

i'm happy the way i love you,

i'm sorry and please come back,

part of me is gone with you,

i tried to reach you in my dreams every night,

i tried to be with you in my dreams,

just another reason why i wouldn't let my self be awake,

awaking alone without your smile in the morning,

is like, trying to breathe without air,

gasping, suffocating, asphyxiating,

the pain is unbearable,

too heavy to be carried anywhere,

too deep to be swam in,

god, just take me in now,

i'll wait by your grave every night,

just incase you rose, and would hold me for the last time,

none

i found myself racing towards you,

why don't you let your guards down,

and let's feel my love for you,

together,

can't you hear it?

god says we're perfect together.

i shall let you feel,smell and touch the love i have for you,

i shall fill your head with my hopes,dreams,fears,past,present and future,

i want to fall in love again,

with you,

why don't we try for the last time?

let's run away and travel and be silly together,

i'm ready, willing to run for you,with you,

i have no idea what to call this.

as i feel the warmth of my tears on my cheek

as i saw my tears,

dripping on the back of my hand,

fell on the pavement,

the moment u turn your back on me,

time stopped,

hell freezes, the zephyr stopped blowing,

the sunshine fades, flowers turned dull,

o how wish this is just a nightmare,

as i saw u walked away,

letting me go, letting us go,

they say mistakes makes you wiser,

i didn't get any wiser,

i turned into a loser,

who gave up on hope, faith and life.

as the life we live in is a lie,

call me pessimist,

but truth is i'm a realist,

deranged from anger, vendetta and hatred,

towards bad omen,

on why this thing is happening in my life.

they say, this is what god wants you to do,

to feel,to experience,

but who are they to say that?

who are they to judge?

they assume, they made speculation over everything,

but nothing is true,

they could only say things,

without really feeling it.

i tried to catch u,

to touch, to hold you in my dreams,

but all i could see is how you wished you could turn back time,

the moment we met,

the moment our eyes locked,

you would turned into different direction,

and just let it be.

p.s:this is just fictional.i call it words art.

;(

it's not easy for me to let you go.it's not easy for me to just forget bout us.i wish we could just forgive and forget.loving u is the most selfless, effortless thing i could do my dear.i wish u would be next to me when i wake up everyday.but, u're gone.i pushed you away.

beautiful yet hurful

i was just wondering,do love such as fashion also changes as time passes by?
i have a best friend who once told me, the real love will never change. as a girl, i would love to believe and feel that.
but as a person, i do not see any relevant in that. i've never been broken-hearted, never been rejected and said no to, because, most of the time, when the relationship started to have some poison, i'll back away, and move on with another person. (yes, i know, i'm a chicken) which is kind of hard for me to believe an eternity love that will never change.
even the Shakespeare's Sonnet 18 suggested that love will fade. i know i'm not very pious but i think the only eternity love is for GOD. you might be laughing hearing that from me. but that's what i think.
i had the best moments in my life with my loved ones, the worst ones too are with them, but i never regretted for ever being with them. experience makes one wiser.
i used to wonder, why is there even love in the world when your love is not returned?why do paper money worth more than the coins, considering the coin's worth in a way to make it from the minerals are much more expensive? why do people take the love the had for granted and just waste it on other things?
love is such a beautiful thing if u're in it, a real unwanted thing if you're outta it, and is something that u need if you're lonely.
i used to love someone, so hard, that there's no way of me to forget him, that i spend most of my moments creating illusions that i might be in an accident and just hit my head on the pavement, and forget bout him. that's how i feel.that's how i want things to be.but it's not gonna happen.