burrrrbbbberry!:D

hello heaps!

been very busy with my life lately..

anyways, here's an update for u guys on what i've been doing,

a) got a gym membership at konami sports club..kinda cool..it has pool,studio and spa and everything.

b)had just went on a shopping spree..bought myself, a trench coat,skirt and muffler : courtesy of burberry..:DD love ittttt!!!

but that's all for now..and this is what i wore yesterday..:D wore my booties:DD

slap!

this is what i wore today!

and i accidentally slap a guys face in the subway.

god knows how embarrassed i am..utter humilation..

i was trying to put my bag on the kind of a compartment for ur stuff above the person that was sitting down's head.but the so-called compartment is not really closed..aahh crap, i do not know how to explain this..

but that's not the point!anyways, i was trying to put my bag on top of the compartment, and then suddenly the train was going through a curve that caused the train to shake, so yeah..my right hand went on to the guy-that-was-standing-next-to-me's face..HARD..he was surprised by the way,told him i was sorry, and avoided eye contact with him for the next 30mins..that is so humiliating!just one wish to GOD, do not make me bump into him ever again in my whole life.

misery

hush my baby,

can you hear it?

god says you're perfect as the way you are,

and honestly luv,

i agree with Him,

if only you could see yourself through my eyes,

how much i want to hold you,feel you,

but i've taken you for granted,

the last time our eyes met,

you were turning your back on me,

your eyes full of disappointment,hatred towards me,

on your way out, you said,

honey,you're the last person i thought would hurt me,

but now you're gone,

not temporarily,momentarily,

but forever,

baby, i can't fall asleep alone,

i can't walk without you holding my hand,

i can't smile without seeing your smile,

i can't breathe without hearing your heartbeat,

i can't live without loving you,

cried myself to sleep every night,

i'm sorry for all the argument,

if i beg would you hold me?

if i cry would you come back to me?

i'm happy the way i love you,

i'm sorry and please come back,

part of me is gone with you,

i tried to reach you in my dreams every night,

i tried to be with you in my dreams,

just another reason why i wouldn't let my self be awake,

awaking alone without your smile in the morning,

is like, trying to breathe without air,

gasping, suffocating, asphyxiating,

the pain is unbearable,

too heavy to be carried anywhere,

too deep to be swam in,

god, just take me in now,

i'll wait by your grave every night,

just incase you rose, and would hold me for the last time,

none

i found myself racing towards you,

why don't you let your guards down,

and let's feel my love for you,

together,

can't you hear it?

god says we're perfect together.

i shall let you feel,smell and touch the love i have for you,

i shall fill your head with my hopes,dreams,fears,past,present and future,

i want to fall in love again,

with you,

why don't we try for the last time?

let's run away and travel and be silly together,

i'm ready, willing to run for you,with you,

what i want!

i have a wish list..

well, more like a never-get-one (some of it) list..

#1 a rado cerix women's watch : this is almost impossible, but i will find a way to buy it.

#2 a beautiful knockout red dress : dress to kill.

#3 an alexander mcqueen and prada shoes :red or black

#4 a gym membership : the weather is too cold for a jog

#5 winter clothing : it's getting awfully cold.

#6 winter's workout outfit : if get the gym's membership, i won't be needing these.

#7 a new handbag : hermes perhaps.

#8 a vaio or imac : getting bored of my laptop and it's starting to hate me too.so do not blame me.

#9 a new camera

i have no idea what to call this.

as i feel the warmth of my tears on my cheek

as i saw my tears,

dripping on the back of my hand,

fell on the pavement,

the moment u turn your back on me,

time stopped,

hell freezes, the zephyr stopped blowing,

the sunshine fades, flowers turned dull,

o how wish this is just a nightmare,

as i saw u walked away,

letting me go, letting us go,

they say mistakes makes you wiser,

i didn't get any wiser,

i turned into a loser,

who gave up on hope, faith and life.

as the life we live in is a lie,

call me pessimist,

but truth is i'm a realist,

deranged from anger, vendetta and hatred,

towards bad omen,

on why this thing is happening in my life.

they say, this is what god wants you to do,

to feel,to experience,

but who are they to say that?

who are they to judge?

they assume, they made speculation over everything,

but nothing is true,

they could only say things,

without really feeling it.

i tried to catch u,

to touch, to hold you in my dreams,

but all i could see is how you wished you could turn back time,

the moment we met,

the moment our eyes locked,

you would turned into different direction,

and just let it be.

p.s:this is just fictional.i call it words art.

:D

hello heaps!

anyways,i'm currently suffering from a lot of disorder..

a) eating disorder - obesity : eating like a fat panda (why i said panda? refer to b)

b) sleeping disorder - turning nocturnal : sadly my classes are during the sunlight..(having a major eyebags issue)

c)mental disorder - from the result of the both above ; i'm having mood swings and my bipolar syndrome is getting serious.

anyways, today is the first time i wore the thigh high boots..love it except it's a bit loose..dang!