it doesn't need any title.

you should have listen,
my tears just glisten,
in this cold lonely blue night,
all i remember is our fight,
i'm done believing in you,
i'm done caring for you,
i refuse to be the broken-hearted girl,
being alone in this world,
you will never love me like i do for you,
so i decided to leave,
the smell of you still lingers in my mind,
the smile of yours still touches my heart,
the soft skin, the warmth of your kisses,
it blew me away,
i wish all of it were true,
i wish your feelings for me were true,
am i not beautiful enough?
am i not sincere enough?
or i'm just too stupid to realize before it's too late.
this is just painful.
what you said, and your action is not the same,
there is a significant difference of it,
it's like lyrics with no music,
roses without any smell,
comedy without any laughter,
life without any purpose,
i guess it's time to leave.
goodbye, dear lover.

no sleep n died in class.

yes,this is my face without sleep..then i went straight away to class..:D

my bf?my TA?

you guys could compare their similarities..i mean i think u could still see it although the TA's feature is kinda blur but the face feature is still significant..i left it tilted so that the picture will be bigger(it's real size?)..this is the first time that i do this (taking ppl's photo without their permission which left me feel so guilty and dirty!-as if i had just robbed a bank!) but i just wanna prove to my bf and u guys on how they look alike..the first time i saw my TA, my jaw nearly dropped!part of me wants to just let go of my books and run and hug him!(yes, that is how much i miss u baby!)and part of me just wanna breakdown and cry..realising he's far..:(( and next week is the third time i had to resubmit my report..for the first time in my life, i was happy to do so..haha..if he's my lecture of every subject, i will probably want to sit in front of the the class everyday!i couldn't help myself from staring at him...every time he walks past me, i get like a blood rush and my heart will just pumps really hard..haha!sorry b,it's just he really looks a lot like u..can't help it...which is why, as soon as i got home today, i called u..:D

out wit kazu n yuta!

i'm went out after school today with kazu and yuta!kazu used to b studying in London n yuta in new york. they're both awesome n funny. i met both of them at kazu's lab around 4.30 and we made a dash to the starbucks which is just one block away from my campus and we just talk. kazu had to leave early though for his class at 6pm. so me and yuta end up talking and until we realize it's 9.40pm..so yeah, me n yuta ends up talking from 4.30 to 9.40pm..that's a long of time..that's approximately 5hrs+ which is crazy!we talked about religion, politics, everything..which is pretty cool..he's a great guy,fun to hangout with..the type that cracks up jokes and stuff..we pretty much didn't stop talking..so yeah..that's just insane! btw,this is what i wore today!kinda boyish and retro punk meets kate moss!haha!(what?she likes to dress up like this..)

how far would you go for the one you love?

Craving your body all through the night
Feels like I'm going through withdrawals
I wanna hold you
I want you inside of these arms
I'm dying to taste you I can't deny
Can't get it out of my mind
Please let me hold you
Cause I need your lovin' tonight

Whenever I'm near you
My love just comes down
Whenever I see you
I just want you around
Cause I wanna feel you
All through the day and the night
Whenever I'm near you
It feels like bedtime

Constantly thinking of things to do
Places where we can make love
I wanna freak you
I'll freak you wherever you want
Placing my kisses all over you
Caressing you so nice and slow
Oh how I want you
There's something I want you to know

I get so lonely
Thinking about you
You are the only
I dream of or think of at all
I'm so into you
Outta my mind for you
Say you can't go a day without me
I love and I want you
And I need you, I need you, I need you

Do you get lonely
Thinking about me
You are the only
I dream of or think of at all

Outta my mind for you
I can't go one day without needing you
I just love you and I want you
I just need to hold you, you know that

To you: I miss you so much. very much. too much. Do u feel the same?

ninja-ish!

owh ya, i forgot..this is what i wore today. and yes, i wore a mask today as my cold and cough is getting worse.but, i feel like a ninja!:D

war with an ojisan(uncle)

this morning, i was thiiiisss close of getting a seat until he uses his man-power to overcome my weakness. which is pretty mean. he should give me, the poor helpless girl a seat instead. has he ever heard of humanity and being a gentlemen? anyways, the war is on ojicyan(uncle)!i shall pour my heart and soul to defeat u. we shall meet again, u're going dooowwnnn!!next is how he looks like, as he is enjoying his victory!

;(

it's not easy for me to let you go.it's not easy for me to just forget bout us.i wish we could just forgive and forget.loving u is the most selfless, effortless thing i could do my dear.i wish u would be next to me when i wake up everyday.but, u're gone.i pushed you away.

went copper+dark brown!

my new hair colour!
i decided to go for copper+dark brown instead..:D
the brunette does not go for the autumn season!
:))
loving the new me!

going brunette!

this is so exciting..a pretty darn good new beginning~
just called Earth n talk to my stylist and already book him for the day!
weee~
i'm ssooooo excited!!
this is me before going brunette~
anticipate the outcome..haha!
i sounded like an assassin..:D
seriously,if being an assassin does not carry so much sin, i will definitely be one..like Angelina Jolie in Wanted and Mr n Mrs Smith!

a new me!

i'm getting a new hair colour!wait for it..it's gonna be a new me!as i need a new beginning~

hey, i don't mind playing tennis in these!
but if i really want to, i can't sweat in it!
haha..
this is Hermes' (dunno how to do the e with apostrophe thing) Spring 2010 ready-to-Wear Collection.

beautiful yet hurful

i was just wondering,do love such as fashion also changes as time passes by?
i have a best friend who once told me, the real love will never change. as a girl, i would love to believe and feel that.
but as a person, i do not see any relevant in that. i've never been broken-hearted, never been rejected and said no to, because, most of the time, when the relationship started to have some poison, i'll back away, and move on with another person. (yes, i know, i'm a chicken) which is kind of hard for me to believe an eternity love that will never change.
even the Shakespeare's Sonnet 18 suggested that love will fade. i know i'm not very pious but i think the only eternity love is for GOD. you might be laughing hearing that from me. but that's what i think.
i had the best moments in my life with my loved ones, the worst ones too are with them, but i never regretted for ever being with them. experience makes one wiser.
i used to wonder, why is there even love in the world when your love is not returned?why do paper money worth more than the coins, considering the coin's worth in a way to make it from the minerals are much more expensive? why do people take the love the had for granted and just waste it on other things?
love is such a beautiful thing if u're in it, a real unwanted thing if you're outta it, and is something that u need if you're lonely.
i used to love someone, so hard, that there's no way of me to forget him, that i spend most of my moments creating illusions that i might be in an accident and just hit my head on the pavement, and forget bout him. that's how i feel.that's how i want things to be.but it's not gonna happen.

:))

i am currently bidding for this baby..
cross ur fingers that it'll be mine..

loving the booties and..everything!

loving the look!

and there's this boots that makes me go crazy.but i can't seem to be able to bid on it just because i had never bought anything online in my yahoo auction. i mean..that is soooo racist or whatever you call it..everybody deserve a chance!not just the 2nd ones..they deserves the first one too..i think i know what i wanna be when i'm old.. a UN ambassador..with 8kids n my hubbie will be the younger version of Brad Pitt..i can't say i want him cause when the times comes he'll be so old..and u get the picture..which is pretty gross..

hello!

owh well..i do not know why is my blogspot's page is in japanese. this is so hard..i'm so confused!anyways, just wanna say hi..and this is what i've worn for the past week! if u count the outfit and the days, yes, they do not match. i've been overslept for a few times. which makes me so lazy to get outta the house. and yes, i cropped the picture in a hurry before i'm off for my weekly jogging.