burrrrbbbberry!:D

hello heaps!

been very busy with my life lately..

anyways, here's an update for u guys on what i've been doing,

a) got a gym membership at konami sports club..kinda cool..it has pool,studio and spa and everything.

b)had just went on a shopping spree..bought myself, a trench coat,skirt and muffler : courtesy of burberry..:DD love ittttt!!!

but that's all for now..and this is what i wore yesterday..:D wore my booties:DD

slap!

this is what i wore today!

and i accidentally slap a guys face in the subway.

god knows how embarrassed i am..utter humilation..

i was trying to put my bag on the kind of a compartment for ur stuff above the person that was sitting down's head.but the so-called compartment is not really closed..aahh crap, i do not know how to explain this..

but that's not the point!anyways, i was trying to put my bag on top of the compartment, and then suddenly the train was going through a curve that caused the train to shake, so yeah..my right hand went on to the guy-that-was-standing-next-to-me's face..HARD..he was surprised by the way,told him i was sorry, and avoided eye contact with him for the next 30mins..that is so humiliating!just one wish to GOD, do not make me bump into him ever again in my whole life.

misery

hush my baby,

can you hear it?

god says you're perfect as the way you are,

and honestly luv,

i agree with Him,

if only you could see yourself through my eyes,

how much i want to hold you,feel you,

but i've taken you for granted,

the last time our eyes met,

you were turning your back on me,

your eyes full of disappointment,hatred towards me,

on your way out, you said,

honey,you're the last person i thought would hurt me,

but now you're gone,

not temporarily,momentarily,

but forever,

baby, i can't fall asleep alone,

i can't walk without you holding my hand,

i can't smile without seeing your smile,

i can't breathe without hearing your heartbeat,

i can't live without loving you,

cried myself to sleep every night,

i'm sorry for all the argument,

if i beg would you hold me?

if i cry would you come back to me?

i'm happy the way i love you,

i'm sorry and please come back,

part of me is gone with you,

i tried to reach you in my dreams every night,

i tried to be with you in my dreams,

just another reason why i wouldn't let my self be awake,

awaking alone without your smile in the morning,

is like, trying to breathe without air,

gasping, suffocating, asphyxiating,

the pain is unbearable,

too heavy to be carried anywhere,

too deep to be swam in,

god, just take me in now,

i'll wait by your grave every night,

just incase you rose, and would hold me for the last time,

none

i found myself racing towards you,

why don't you let your guards down,

and let's feel my love for you,

together,

can't you hear it?

god says we're perfect together.

i shall let you feel,smell and touch the love i have for you,

i shall fill your head with my hopes,dreams,fears,past,present and future,

i want to fall in love again,

with you,

why don't we try for the last time?

let's run away and travel and be silly together,

i'm ready, willing to run for you,with you,

what i want!

i have a wish list..

well, more like a never-get-one (some of it) list..

#1 a rado cerix women's watch : this is almost impossible, but i will find a way to buy it.

#2 a beautiful knockout red dress : dress to kill.

#3 an alexander mcqueen and prada shoes :red or black

#4 a gym membership : the weather is too cold for a jog

#5 winter clothing : it's getting awfully cold.

#6 winter's workout outfit : if get the gym's membership, i won't be needing these.

#7 a new handbag : hermes perhaps.

#8 a vaio or imac : getting bored of my laptop and it's starting to hate me too.so do not blame me.

#9 a new camera

i have no idea what to call this.

as i feel the warmth of my tears on my cheek

as i saw my tears,

dripping on the back of my hand,

fell on the pavement,

the moment u turn your back on me,

time stopped,

hell freezes, the zephyr stopped blowing,

the sunshine fades, flowers turned dull,

o how wish this is just a nightmare,

as i saw u walked away,

letting me go, letting us go,

they say mistakes makes you wiser,

i didn't get any wiser,

i turned into a loser,

who gave up on hope, faith and life.

as the life we live in is a lie,

call me pessimist,

but truth is i'm a realist,

deranged from anger, vendetta and hatred,

towards bad omen,

on why this thing is happening in my life.

they say, this is what god wants you to do,

to feel,to experience,

but who are they to say that?

who are they to judge?

they assume, they made speculation over everything,

but nothing is true,

they could only say things,

without really feeling it.

i tried to catch u,

to touch, to hold you in my dreams,

but all i could see is how you wished you could turn back time,

the moment we met,

the moment our eyes locked,

you would turned into different direction,

and just let it be.

p.s:this is just fictional.i call it words art.

:D

hello heaps!

anyways,i'm currently suffering from a lot of disorder..

a) eating disorder - obesity : eating like a fat panda (why i said panda? refer to b)

b) sleeping disorder - turning nocturnal : sadly my classes are during the sunlight..(having a major eyebags issue)

c)mental disorder - from the result of the both above ; i'm having mood swings and my bipolar syndrome is getting serious.

anyways, today is the first time i wore the thigh high boots..love it except it's a bit loose..dang!

it doesn't need any title.

you should have listen,
my tears just glisten,
in this cold lonely blue night,
all i remember is our fight,
i'm done believing in you,
i'm done caring for you,
i refuse to be the broken-hearted girl,
being alone in this world,
you will never love me like i do for you,
so i decided to leave,
the smell of you still lingers in my mind,
the smile of yours still touches my heart,
the soft skin, the warmth of your kisses,
it blew me away,
i wish all of it were true,
i wish your feelings for me were true,
am i not beautiful enough?
am i not sincere enough?
or i'm just too stupid to realize before it's too late.
this is just painful.
what you said, and your action is not the same,
there is a significant difference of it,
it's like lyrics with no music,
roses without any smell,
comedy without any laughter,
life without any purpose,
i guess it's time to leave.
goodbye, dear lover.

no sleep n died in class.

yes,this is my face without sleep..then i went straight away to class..:D

my bf?my TA?

you guys could compare their similarities..i mean i think u could still see it although the TA's feature is kinda blur but the face feature is still significant..i left it tilted so that the picture will be bigger(it's real size?)..this is the first time that i do this (taking ppl's photo without their permission which left me feel so guilty and dirty!-as if i had just robbed a bank!) but i just wanna prove to my bf and u guys on how they look alike..the first time i saw my TA, my jaw nearly dropped!part of me wants to just let go of my books and run and hug him!(yes, that is how much i miss u baby!)and part of me just wanna breakdown and cry..realising he's far..:(( and next week is the third time i had to resubmit my report..for the first time in my life, i was happy to do so..haha..if he's my lecture of every subject, i will probably want to sit in front of the the class everyday!i couldn't help myself from staring at him...every time he walks past me, i get like a blood rush and my heart will just pumps really hard..haha!sorry b,it's just he really looks a lot like u..can't help it...which is why, as soon as i got home today, i called u..:D

out wit kazu n yuta!

i'm went out after school today with kazu and yuta!kazu used to b studying in London n yuta in new york. they're both awesome n funny. i met both of them at kazu's lab around 4.30 and we made a dash to the starbucks which is just one block away from my campus and we just talk. kazu had to leave early though for his class at 6pm. so me and yuta end up talking and until we realize it's 9.40pm..so yeah, me n yuta ends up talking from 4.30 to 9.40pm..that's a long of time..that's approximately 5hrs+ which is crazy!we talked about religion, politics, everything..which is pretty cool..he's a great guy,fun to hangout with..the type that cracks up jokes and stuff..we pretty much didn't stop talking..so yeah..that's just insane! btw,this is what i wore today!kinda boyish and retro punk meets kate moss!haha!(what?she likes to dress up like this..)

how far would you go for the one you love?

Craving your body all through the night
Feels like I'm going through withdrawals
I wanna hold you
I want you inside of these arms
I'm dying to taste you I can't deny
Can't get it out of my mind
Please let me hold you
Cause I need your lovin' tonight

Whenever I'm near you
My love just comes down
Whenever I see you
I just want you around
Cause I wanna feel you
All through the day and the night
Whenever I'm near you
It feels like bedtime

Constantly thinking of things to do
Places where we can make love
I wanna freak you
I'll freak you wherever you want
Placing my kisses all over you
Caressing you so nice and slow
Oh how I want you
There's something I want you to know

I get so lonely
Thinking about you
You are the only
I dream of or think of at all
I'm so into you
Outta my mind for you
Say you can't go a day without me
I love and I want you
And I need you, I need you, I need you

Do you get lonely
Thinking about me
You are the only
I dream of or think of at all

Outta my mind for you
I can't go one day without needing you
I just love you and I want you
I just need to hold you, you know that

To you: I miss you so much. very much. too much. Do u feel the same?

ninja-ish!

owh ya, i forgot..this is what i wore today. and yes, i wore a mask today as my cold and cough is getting worse.but, i feel like a ninja!:D

war with an ojisan(uncle)

this morning, i was thiiiisss close of getting a seat until he uses his man-power to overcome my weakness. which is pretty mean. he should give me, the poor helpless girl a seat instead. has he ever heard of humanity and being a gentlemen? anyways, the war is on ojicyan(uncle)!i shall pour my heart and soul to defeat u. we shall meet again, u're going dooowwnnn!!next is how he looks like, as he is enjoying his victory!

;(

it's not easy for me to let you go.it's not easy for me to just forget bout us.i wish we could just forgive and forget.loving u is the most selfless, effortless thing i could do my dear.i wish u would be next to me when i wake up everyday.but, u're gone.i pushed you away.

went copper+dark brown!

my new hair colour!
i decided to go for copper+dark brown instead..:D
the brunette does not go for the autumn season!
:))
loving the new me!

going brunette!

this is so exciting..a pretty darn good new beginning~
just called Earth n talk to my stylist and already book him for the day!
weee~
i'm ssooooo excited!!
this is me before going brunette~
anticipate the outcome..haha!
i sounded like an assassin..:D
seriously,if being an assassin does not carry so much sin, i will definitely be one..like Angelina Jolie in Wanted and Mr n Mrs Smith!

a new me!

i'm getting a new hair colour!wait for it..it's gonna be a new me!as i need a new beginning~

hey, i don't mind playing tennis in these!
but if i really want to, i can't sweat in it!
haha..
this is Hermes' (dunno how to do the e with apostrophe thing) Spring 2010 ready-to-Wear Collection.

beautiful yet hurful

i was just wondering,do love such as fashion also changes as time passes by?
i have a best friend who once told me, the real love will never change. as a girl, i would love to believe and feel that.
but as a person, i do not see any relevant in that. i've never been broken-hearted, never been rejected and said no to, because, most of the time, when the relationship started to have some poison, i'll back away, and move on with another person. (yes, i know, i'm a chicken) which is kind of hard for me to believe an eternity love that will never change.
even the Shakespeare's Sonnet 18 suggested that love will fade. i know i'm not very pious but i think the only eternity love is for GOD. you might be laughing hearing that from me. but that's what i think.
i had the best moments in my life with my loved ones, the worst ones too are with them, but i never regretted for ever being with them. experience makes one wiser.
i used to wonder, why is there even love in the world when your love is not returned?why do paper money worth more than the coins, considering the coin's worth in a way to make it from the minerals are much more expensive? why do people take the love the had for granted and just waste it on other things?
love is such a beautiful thing if u're in it, a real unwanted thing if you're outta it, and is something that u need if you're lonely.
i used to love someone, so hard, that there's no way of me to forget him, that i spend most of my moments creating illusions that i might be in an accident and just hit my head on the pavement, and forget bout him. that's how i feel.that's how i want things to be.but it's not gonna happen.

:))

i am currently bidding for this baby..
cross ur fingers that it'll be mine..

loving the booties and..everything!

loving the look!

and there's this boots that makes me go crazy.but i can't seem to be able to bid on it just because i had never bought anything online in my yahoo auction. i mean..that is soooo racist or whatever you call it..everybody deserve a chance!not just the 2nd ones..they deserves the first one too..i think i know what i wanna be when i'm old.. a UN ambassador..with 8kids n my hubbie will be the younger version of Brad Pitt..i can't say i want him cause when the times comes he'll be so old..and u get the picture..which is pretty gross..

hello!

owh well..i do not know why is my blogspot's page is in japanese. this is so hard..i'm so confused!anyways, just wanna say hi..and this is what i've worn for the past week! if u count the outfit and the days, yes, they do not match. i've been overslept for a few times. which makes me so lazy to get outta the house. and yes, i cropped the picture in a hurry before i'm off for my weekly jogging.